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2009-05-12 / 11:33 p.m.

Ingesting pills by the fistful at the kitchen table. Fast forward two years and here I am, sitting on my bed in a green t-shirt in the dark, trying not to think about this minute, this second just two years ago.
You can save a body without saving a person, you know.
Last year I tried to forget about it by dropping a balloon out my car window as I sped down a road laced with green leaves, scribbled with words that I didn't even feel - 'this will not consume me'.
But it did. It does. Fuck May twelfth forever being the eve of such a ridulously personal tragedy.
Fuck being in the exact same place every single year and fuck caring too much at only nineteen.

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