2021-10-12 / 11:09 a.m.

I don't know if I really have all that many friends anymore. I look at my phone and I don't care. I check my email and I don't care. My calendar sends me alerts because I can't remember anything and I don't care. I'm not sure if it's the pain or it's the meds or it's my cynicism toward the world and the people that walk it. I don't understand capitalism. I don't understand the meat industry. I don't understand the beauty industry. The weight loss industry. The idea that we should worship money above all else. All I asked for was healthcare and this is how it's turned out. I wonder what I expected in the beginning but I don't even know anymore. Probably because I don't care.