2016-06-27 / 10:56 p.m.

Sometimes I think that a thirty-two year old man better known as my boyfriend is being a ghost on purpose and I go through days and weeks on end feeling insecure and rotten and I wish he'd want to see me more and I wish I wasn't always so sad and tired and angry and disappointed. We holiday together next week and afterwards I need to decide whether his not loving me after coming on two years is a deal breaker or not. I already know that I'm settling. I already know that it is. It's just getting embarrassing always having somebody new. I wish somebody would show me what I need to do. I'm so lonely inside this skin.