2012-12-30 / 8:53 p.m.

I haven't written in four months. I don't know where to start. The one real dependable in my life turned out to not be so dependable. I held my shit together, didn't eat for a month, got my work done on time, cried in the shower, wished I'd dissolve down the drain. I had a breakdown. I don't know. I may or may not be making progress.