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2010-08-17 / 10:10 p.m. I'm so restless that I visit my grandmother when I think she'll probably be in bed, but she never is and she's getting old and still likes to watch the telly really loudly and talk about all the neighbours that I never really knew and ask funny questions and talk about bobbing for apples full of sixpence pieces and it sounds like a whole other universe and then I leave again and I'm still restless all over, restless to my core and it's only after ten and there are still too many hours left in the day. A friend and his woman broke up, broke apart, fell apart - I don't know - and I'm not out getting pissed with him with both of us crying on each other's shoulders because I never know what to say to him or how to be around him - I think maybe I'm too crazy for him - and because I'm too worried about a stupid fucking doctor's appointment where I beg for a stupid fucking letter so I can pay four hundred and twenty bucks for a stupid fucking scan that probably won't even show up whatever the fuck is hurting me so badly. I'm done not knowing. |